Blood To Blood Summary from the upcoming book’s back cover
Here’s a quick preview of Blood To Blood:
Angelika Brown has a killer voice. Too bad her über-conservative parents aren’t happy when she decides to quit high school to be a pop singer. What’s worse, she’s morphing into a blood-drinking immortal and her soaring vocals can now decimate everything, and everyone, within earshot. Will she learn how to control her new powers? Or will her bloodlust cause her to kill her girl group before they reach the Top 10?
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“The voice to me is the greatest gift… You need no other instrument, all you have to do is sing…and it’s there.” ~ Donna Summer
When I saw this quote from the late, great Ms. Donna Summer I thought it was a perfect, concise summary of how Angel Brown feels about singing.
Early in Blood To Blood, Angel says singing was her waking dream… “the only thing I could see myself doing forever.” Throughout her struggles she holds on to the only thing she has – her voice. Even when it turns against her.
Like Donna Summer, a classically trained singer who made a name for herself in the Top 40, Angel embraces the music of the soul even as she belts out bubblegum pop.
RIP Donna Summer, and mad love to all true singers who dare to live their dream.
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A clay pot sitting in the sun will always be a clay pot. It has to go though the white heat of the furnace to become porcelain. ~ Mildred White Struven
The process of transformation
Blood To Blood’s heroine, Angel Brown, goes through epic struggle in order to pursue her dream of becoming a singer.
As I wrote about her struggles I thought of my own life challenges and the conflict my friends were experiencing. There is no way you can go through life without encountering what Iyanla Vanzant refers to as “The Valley.” During those dark times, you discover what your soul is truly made of.
The dichotomy is amazing: on one hand you don’t want to experience the pain (who does?), and on the other hand the pain, heartache and hard knocks are exactly what makes you stronger, more brilliant and takes you to a level you otherwise wouldn’t be.
Kelly Clarkson says it nicely in her song “Stronger”:
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, stronger Just me, myself and I What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger Stand a little taller Doesn’t mean I’m lonely when I’m alone
The fire of transformation happened to Angel, me and I’m sure you can tell a story or two about your own personal trials.
Just remember once you get on the other side of the tunnel, show your gratitude and say thank you to that hardship for helping you become the butterfly you are today.
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Death Cab, like Radiohead, is one of those bands that I play all the time to the point that I wonder if it’s healthy for my son.
To give you an example, one day we were driving along the countryside in Dekalb county (Georgia, Atlanta area). It was a bright and sunny day, and as always iTunes was piping through the stereo. Death Cab’s “I Will Possess Your Heart” was playing. And my 5 year-old was singing it verbatim.
I realized that this must have been the thousandth time he’d heard this tune, and for a moment I wondered if it was normal, after all it’s a pretty intense song.
But then again, what is normal? I recalled the dark and hyper-sexualized songs I’d grown up listening to and never caught the real meaning until I was in college (some even later, like Frankie Goes to Hollywood “Relax” I had absolutely no idea that was about reaching orgasm until the new millennium, but I’d never seen this banned version of the video either, eewww!). I figured he’d be fine as long as I continued to balance out the Death Cab with Backyardigans, The Wiggles, The Muppets and less dark, more family-friendly bands like Coldplay and U2.
This particular tune has a play count of over 300 in my iTunes. That was after my computer crashed and wiped out my play counts. It’s right up there with the most popular songs from my Blood To Blood playlist, but ironically it’s not on that playlist. Nonetheless, I crafted a good amount of Justin’s interior monologue while listening to it:
I imagined Justin saying these lyrics, or something like them, in his head whenever he spent any time with Angel:
How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me. It’s like a book elegantly bound but, in a language that you can’t read. Just yet.
You gotta spend some time, Love. You gotta spend some time with me. And I know that you’ll find, love I will possess your heart. You gotta spend some time, Love. You gotta spend some time with me. And I know that you’ll find, love I will possess your heart.
There are days when outside your window I see my reflection as I slowly pass, and I long for this mirrored perspective when we’ll be lovers, lovers at last.
You gotta spend some time, Love. You gotta spend some time with me. And I know that you’ll find, love I will possess your heart. You gotta spend some time, Love. You gotta spend some time with me. And I know that you’ll find, love I will possess your heart. I will possess your heart. I will possess your heart.
You reject my… advances… and desperate pleas… I won’t let you… let me down… so easily. So easily.
You gotta spend some time, Love. You gotta spend some time with me. And I know that you’ll find, love I will possess your heart. You gotta spend some time, Love. You gotta spend some time with me. And I know that you’ll find, love I will possess your heart. You gotta spend some time, Love. You gotta spend some time with me. And I know that you’ll find, love I will possess your heart. I will possess your heart. I will possess your heart.
That’s *so* Justin. Wow. Now that I’m thinking of him again, I need to run and write some more of the Justin story I’ve been working on.
My trusty Blood To Blood YouTube Playlist includes tunes scooped directly from my iPod playlist, and served up via YouTube. These are the videos to some of the artists listed in the official Blood To Blood playlist. One of these days maybe I’ll be able to pipe everything directly from iTunes, but in the meantime, this little playlist feature on YouTube is kinda cool.
Anyway, I played these artists and their songs hundreds of times while writing Blood To Blood. Many of them are connected to specific scenes from the book. Hole’s “Violet” for example is for when Angel feels her new powers for the first time as she runs through the Maine woods with her family.
“What can you do to promote world peace? Go home and love your family.” ~Mother Teresa
Almost all of my characters are faced with difficult decisions that involve their family members. The theme of Family is one of the most prominent aspects of my writing. I’m fascinated with family dynamics and how the family serves, in part, as a cocoon, a catalyst that brings about dynamic change within an individual.
Some families are exciting, some not so interesting, but all are imperfect.This is the stuff I like to explore. The imperfections. How even a family who seemingly has it all, namely Angel Brown’s family, can have deep dark secrets, murderous thoughts and enough conflict to “keep it real.”
Many ancient cultures and modern day metaphysical movements espouse the concept that we choose our parents. That before we are born, our souls, on their unique missions to learn and teach, choose the human vessels which will help them accomplish their goal.
Many people may find this impossible to believe for a number of reasons, but personally I know that no matter how imperfect my parents were, my life didn’t improve until I could accept them for who and what they are and the lessons they taught me.
Robin Thicke is the inspiration for one of my favorite, and most obsessed over, characters: Sawyer Creed.
Two of Thicke’s songs were the inspiration for an entire novel and its heroine Angel Brown:
“Angel” (Why, oh why wasn’t an official video made of this?)
“Can You Believe” (I love when he says “If somebody’s watching, you would never know.”)
Check out the beautiful lyrics to “Can You Believe”:
Nothing can make you high Or put fire in your eyes Or give you a chance to fly When you need the wings When all that youve got is doubt And nothing can stop you from feeling down But oh I know, I know exactly how you feel
But can you believe now When youre on your knees now Begging and pleading now Can you believe When all that youve got is doubt And no one to pull you out When your heart is slowin down Can you believe
See the person I love the most Is so far away tonight And no other medicine or promise is Gonna heal me up right But I got to believe That her and me Will be together Cause thats all I got And Oh, I know When youre down at the bottom Can you believe
Can you believe when all hope seems gone When your mother and father cant keep you safe from harm Can you forgive in your heart Can you ask for forgiveness When nobody else believes can you believe Can you believe in yourself
If nobodys watchin You will never know If somebodys watchin You will never know If nobodys watchin You will never know If somebodys watchin You will never know If nobodys watchin You will never know If somebodys watchin You will never know
In fact, his entire album The Evolution of Robin Thicke played in nonstop rotation during the writing and editing of my book.
Thank you, thank you, thank you Robin Thicke for being my muse.
I am heartbroken to learn of the passing of my friend, the one and only musical genius, Quincy Jones. Quincy touched my world as both a cherished mentor and as also as someone I looked up to for his deep impact on virtually every form of American music.
